Wednesday, June 12, 2013


I'd fallen asleep last night.  Then I was gently awakened - it must have been my TV automatically turning off itself.  The room was black.  And I had this very strong feeling, so strong, that if I went back to sleep, I wouldn't wake up in the morning.  I tried reading my book to get out of my head, but the feeling was too strong, so I grabbed Rumples and held him close and went back to sleep.  When I woke up this morning, I thanked God for another day.  The strange feeling of....I don't know, doom?....hasn't exactly left; its stench still lingers.  Maybe it's too much ER.

On another note, I've been having a hard time lately with a few things.  Namely: I'm not getting married, I miss my dog, and I want to move back to VA.  I read the following verse in today's Proverbs31 devotional: "The LORD will work out his plans for my life—for your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don't abandon me, for you made me." Psalm 138:8 (NLT).  There were a few words in particular I noticed by putting emphasis on different phrases, like so:  The LORD -- will work out -- his -- plans for my life -- for -- your faithful love -- O LORD, endures forever.  I'll leave you to your own pondering on that one.